Missing motivation?

Not sure what it is, but I’m really missing motivation at the moment. With all the stuff going on from selling my moms house, trying to focus on new goals at work and being healthy – I feel drained and without energy and motivation.

When I come home there is always someone calling me, or counting on me to do something. Or I’m expected to be at a meeting for the radio station…

Have troubles feeling relaxed and rested. So what happens is – I come home and instead of doing my cardio, I take my shower, have dinner and watch tv or read a book before going to bed.

Things is, that it’s all a vicious circle. Cause I wanna be relaxed, without stress… but because I’m not doing any cardio – I start stressing about it, and so the circle repeats itself.

Feels sometimes like there are not enough hours in a day.

Hugzzz, Steven X

What a week.

Glad that this week is almost over though.
Let the weekend begin!

Last half of the week wasn’t a lot better then the first part. But i’m already happy that today is Friday. This weekend I need to do some ironing, and we need to go shopping for groceries. Other then that I have no tasks at all. So i’m gonna try and enjoy myself by catching up on some series, and maybe a movie who knows. Also wanna do some gaming before the weekend is over.

Was thinking of a nice walk on Sunday perhaps, but apparently the weather will not be so nice during the weekend, so don’t think i’ll be going out for a walk.
Hope you guy’s will have a good weekend!
Do enjoy!

Hugzzz,
Steven X

What a day

I feel tired but kind of satisfied at the same time.

So let me explain for a moment, I’m a ICT coördinator in real life, and I’m responsible for anything to do with ICT – going from smartphones, laptops, tablets, cloud storage, network issues, office phones… and so on. I work with about 50 colleagues spread over 4 offices, and I’m the only one in ICT. Basically I’m my own team 🙂

For 2018 we wanna continue investing towards the cloud by transferring our document server into the cloud.

So we had our first Teaminfo of the year today where I had to do a presentation/workshop and explain to my colleagues what is happening in 2018 when it comes to ICT. Wasn’t sure if everyone was going to understand it or how people would react towards the presentation and our plans.

But to be honest things weren’t so bad at all. So that’s a good thing! It was stressful cause I ALWAYS doubt myself, but in the end people seemed to understand what I was talking about and what the plans will be for the future.

So I can stop stress eating now!

Although to be honest. I barely had lunch, cause this time they decided on getting pizza for 50 people. I love pizza! But didn’t feel hungry cause of the stress, and maybe it’s for the better – I had 3 slices, normally I have a whole pizza :p

Tonight I’ll be having my rice and chicken. Already looking forward to it. Won’t go on my cross trainer though – will be to late to eat otherwise. Oh btw, haven’t said so… but went on the cross trainer yesterday, first time in over almost 6 weeks. So… I was happy!

Also had my weigh in.

Weight: 112.2 kg

It’s a start again. It’s less weight, and also my muscle tissue went up and my fat went down. Yeah we have one of those expensive scales that measures your fat an such… 🙂

As you can see, a huge increase of body fat (yellow line) during the period I wasn’t doing any walking or cross trainer sessions.

I’ll get there. I’m sure of it 🙂

Thanks again for reading this. Don’t hesitate to comment!

Big hugzzz,

Steven x