It’s not like I hide and don’t want any social contacts, cause in all honesty I am a social kind of guy if the anxiety doesn’t kick in.
But it’s not the first time that I talk to people or even connect with them, but that I don’t feel like putting more effort in only cause I know that I can’t take the pressure and responsibility of being a good friend.
People don’t always understand that and automatically in their eyes you become a cunt, antisocial dick, a player even.
And when you wanna explain they don’t listen, cause changes are they have been hurt in the past and feel like this is that same moment over again.
Life can be hard sometimes.