Categorie: Health & Fitness

Week #1

Week #1

We are back.
Needed time to get some things in perspective, and found out what I want in life and how to get there.

Since this week we have started with portion control, no sweets, no chocolate, no crisps, no alcohol…

Honestly, some days were more difficult than others. The biggest problem for me was in the evening sitting on the sofa watching tv and no nuts, crisps, chocolate were allowed.

We are such habit creatures, and itโ€™s difficult to get into a new way of life. But we will get there. ๐Ÿ™‚

Hugzzz, Steven x

Taking it slow

Taking it slow

I can’t really complain this week.

Have been on my cross trainer twice this week, only for about 30 min every time. But better that then nothing.

Also did some portion control this week, and tried to eat less and only one plate. And for lunch at work I went for small things like a yoghurt which is basically what I also have the morning for breakfast.

I don’t feel hungry after I’ve eaten, but I do seem to still grab for sugar once I’m in front of the tv…

So yeah, I can’t say I’ve done bad.

Social life

Social life

It’s not like I hide and don’t want any social contacts, cause in all honesty I am a social kind of guy if the anxiety doesn’t kick in.

But it’s not the first time that I talk to people or even connect with them, but that I don’t feel like putting more effort in only cause I know that I can’t take the pressure and responsibility of being a good friend.

People don’t always understand that and automatically in their eyes you become a cunt, antisocial dick, a player even.

And when you wanna explain they don’t listen, cause changes are they have been hurt in the past and feel like this is that same moment over again.

Life can be hard sometimes.

Stopped working full time.

Stopped working full time.

Since a few weeks I don’t work full time anymore. I made that decision for myself cause I could feel the rope round my neck getting tighter. I couldn’t cope anymore, had no energy and I wasn’t in a good mood.

Things have been hectic since October when my mom became single cause the prick she was seeing for more then 20 years – apparently was having an affair for 2 years already. Never liked the guy, couldn’t stand him – he was also the reason I ran away from home at 19.

Taking care of my mom upon the normal stuff I already had to deal with was becoming to much for me. So therefore the decision to take it slow and stop working full time.

Which means I have Monday’s all for myself. And I love them! I don’t need to feel guilty if I feel like staying in my boxers and watch soap series all day long.

This is my medication, and I made this choice.